As I sat down to write today I wanted to explore the sin of pride and vanity. You see, I am still very conscience of appearing disabled. It keeps me from going out and being seen. It is as if my disability make me feel lesser than others. My challenge is to always remember to see myself as God sees me. I am perfect in His eyes. I am exactly as He has made me. And, by the way, so are you!!
Recently, a dear friend of mine gave me a book titled “Disability and the Gospel”. The subtitle was “How God uses our brokenness to display His grace”. My sin of pride diminishes His work in me. It turns me away from the wonderful grace of God’s love. Seen through this perspective it is in fact, a very easy choice. Who do I think I am to refuse God’s gift of grace? I must pray to always remember that God is leading me on this life journey. My simple job is to follow him even if, according to the world’s standards, I look different or not as my prideful self would like to look. God’s gift of my weakness brings me closer to Him more than any grand gesture of strength that I could show. Do I pray for healing? YES. Do I pray for a miracle? YES. But I also send a prayer of thanksgiving, because I know that God has not forgotten me or left me behind. I am always resting in his arms (wheelchair and all).
Hermits of St. Giles